- Last Updated: 12:24 PM, July 6, 2012
- Posted: 12:17 PM, July 6, 2012
Rihanna talks about being in love, then having her “whole life change,” in the August issue of Harper’s Bazaar, apparently alluding to her relationship with bad boy Chris Brown.
"When I was in love, I fell so hard. I was really, really, really in love," the R&B diva, 24, says in an upcoming cover story. "The way it made me feel was priceless. And in a blink of an eye my whole life changed. Everything that I knew was different."
Rihanna and Brown split in 2009 after she was physically assaulted by him. But the two haven’t stayed very far apart, collaborating on songs together and being seen publicly at the same clubs.
While Rihanna doesn’t say that ex that made her fall “so hard” was Brown, she adds, in the Bazaar interview, “I never thought I’d feel that pain in my life. I’m afraid of feeling that again."
After the assault, Rihanna said in a “20/20” interview about her relationship with Brown, “The more in love we became, the more dangerous we became for each other, equally dangerous. Because it was a bit of an obsession."
But Rihanna tells Bazaar of collaborating with Brown on a recent remix of her provocative song, “Birthday Cake,” "I understood that people had every right to be concerned about it. But I didn't see it that way because I'm in a different place."
The singer also adds in the interview with the fashion magazine that she’s getting skinny and doesn’t like it.
"I don't know if there's something going on with my body right now, but I'm eating everything in life!" she exclaims. "I miss my ass. It just went away! I need a butt. I have an idea of one, but it's not living up to its full potential right now."
Rihanna, meanwhile, attended a wake in New York for her grandmother, Clara Brathwait, yesterday.
"Dry cry, even tears... Even my heart cry but who cares?!” the singer tweeted. “Words can't explain the essence of her beauty. You and you alone no other one."
The singer’s grandmother passed away from cancer, and Rihanna had “cancelled all of her engagements in the past few weeks to spend time with her ailing relative,” Radar Online reported.Follow @PageSix